Chapter 1- Strip Tease

That feeling of walking in the house, stripping ( mostly getting that bra off) and taking a shower, is the most relieving feeling in the world. Add a glass of wine, a face mask and Netflix or catching up on that show you missed last week, relaxation at its best!

Tonight is a little different. I cant get to my routine , the wine and mask have to wait tonight. Love & Hip Hop on pause. Tonight my focus is on the papers that end a chapter and start a new one. The end of an era, my divorce papers. 

February 2, 2019 was the start of a story. I Zenia Gelin was officially on her own. I laid in bed every night by myself; unless the kids wanted to snuggle, and found myself crying every night for the entire month. Funny thing is, I was not crying due to my marriage was ending, I was crying and sad because of how it ended. 

For a long time I felt stuck, like I was SUPPOSED to be this perfect wife, perfect mother. But I felt myself failing and falling into depression. I didn't want this life, not because I didn't want to be married but because I was tired of failing. I wanted something from my husband that I now realize he couldn't give me, because I dint know what it was. What i did want was to feel like i was a priority. I am a person who would give the world even if it was the last I had, all I wanted in return was time. 

From Feb 2 my first chapter to my new story was to figure out who Zenia was, who I am and who I want to be. How do I figure that out? I look at the one thing I craved the most, time.

So I spent time with myself, A LOT of time. Then progressed into time with my kids and time with my family.

So every night, I walk threw the door of my apartment, strip, shower and apply my face mask. I spend time with new Zenia sipping wine, catching up on shows. Tonight, time is spent with old Zenia, with divorce papers in my hand, im i look at who i was, signing away the old Zenia. Sealing it like a time capsule, 13 years worth of memories. Some good, some bad; none the less memories of a Zenia that got me to this place. Sip, read, reminisce sip, read  reminisce. 

This is it. 

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